Balancing the See Saw

Being a Libran , my concept of balance in life was similar to two kids playing see-saw !
Once you are high up in the air , and the next moment you are down ,almost on the floor .
The goal was simply to go up as many times as you fall down .

Life was nothing more or less than an emotional roller coaster ride . The only thing to look forward to were the days when I would be on the right side of the see- saw .
I have spent hours and hours devising some magic formula that would help me stay in the right side of the see – saw forever !

One of my attempts to reach the magic formula was to start a “No Bullshit movement”.
I have spent days in rebellion , completely fighting the bullshit against me , and feeling good at winning .
But this was not a permanent solution . One cant say no to all bullshit , there is some bullshit one HAS to take .
There are sensitive situations , dealing with loved ones for example, where ensuring their peace of mind becomes more important than saying “No bullshit “.

How then , could I see myself sitting on the right side of the see-saw ??
The thing is , I can never see myself sitting there forever . The thing about the “high” side of the seesaw is – the excitement lasts only uptil you reach there . Once you are there , there is nothing to do , but sit with your legs suspended in mid air !! That is pretty boring !

Recently , I seem to have found pieces of peaceful moments !
I have really never found myself so much at peace in months .Not that there is no bullshit happening . It is happening , and yet it doesn’t seem to affect me .

Maybe this is because I am able to see some amount of the “bigger picture” .
Maybe I have realized that this bullshit is not going to stay forever , nor is any bullshit .. I look forward to the next upcoming happy event – something as simple as going home and eating a good meal .
Maybe the realization that my life is actually awesome , is klilling some of the bitterness …

The whole point of this story is simply this –
Saying No to Bullshit doesn’t work.
What works is recognizing bullshit what for what it is – a piece of crap that I don’t need to stamp on and get my feet dirty ( Crap being a synonym for crap , and feet being a synonym for mind )

I read a joke somewhere – “Dealing with situations is  just using the concept of mind over matter . If you don’t mind , it doesn’t matter !!”

The real realization is – this is not a joke !!!!

Balance in life is the balance between staying IN the situation and going ABOVE the situation and looking at it objectively .
Forget about saying no to bullshit . The real goal is to be deep in bull shit and yet , stay mentally elevated above it !
                                                                                                                           -Deepika